cant stand your loneliness...

downloading music i use to listen to is awesome... anywho. Just finished up the color coding, paragraph titles and rough horizontal. The past three days have been long but good ones. We've been celebrating the 50th ann. of YWAM with the founders Loren and Darlene Cunningham. Its been great to just really spend time listening to what God has down/ what hes doing/ and what the future could look like. In between these meetings I've been spending time with some Taiwanese people and the lucky part is that they don't speak a lot of english so I get to practice my chinese, which until I talked to people who only know chinese, I realize I don't know half the words I wish I knew. I enjoy speaking in another language, but more so the people who I've been speaking to. They've really grown on my heart. I've just been desiring to see any many Taiwanese people come to Christ as possible and I pray that the people in my class feel the same.

I've been reading a book I've been struggling through for awhile called "Ghandi to Vinoba" and it talks about non-violence and living peaceful lives. Its been really hard to struggle through. Something my school really stresses is that "first you do, than you preach" and I feel like this is so true with me in the matter. I feel like I talk about how bad war is but yet I do nothing to end it, or bring relief to those who are struggling, on both sides. I mean I through up a prayer every once in awhile, but is that putting hands and feet to the gospel?

Listening to Loren Cunningham preach has been moving. Its awesome to know that he wants people to be saved no matter what. Liars, thieves, rapists, murders, terrorist, you name them, they can be saved. Loren was saying how if we meet Osama Bin Ladan we should turn him into the next Paul. I fully agree, I feel if terrorist cant be redeemed then take away over half of the New Testament. I know this sounds all peachy on paper, but its hard, I believe it is so much harder to be against violence than for it.

I would love to spend some time in a war zone, loving people, praying for those who have been hurt by either sides of the party. I guess its just one of those situations were I have to just look around and be content with where I am, I mean I am content here [in the good way] I wouldn't trade were I'm at right now for much, if anything.

We finished up the 50th celebration by taking the Lords Supper and committed ourself to God to serve and give our lives for the benefit of others. I'm so game for that, I'm tired of my life being about me, I'm tired of praying prayers asking selfishly for things, I just want to know Jesus and I feel as I come to know Jesus everything else will come into place.

my life is no longer mine...